Old changes

You know what sucks? Getting older. Except not really. Except yeah it does. But anyways, I'm not old, so I can't talk a lot of shit, but I am at a point in my life where I can see how my life is starting to change from when I was 18. And the thing is that, when you're 18, you don't believe all the stuff people tell you about growing up. You just think you're going to be the exception to every rule and live forever. Well, that ain't gonna happen. And yes, all the myths about growing up are true; you gain weight way easier, you panic about your future, you get freaked out when you see a kid you used to babysit twerking.

But really and truly, the number one realest thing about growing up is that you realize, every year, how much you're constantly growing and maturing, and how much more you know now. You know that saying, 'If only I would've known then what I do now'? That's the realest shit.

We're all just learning, floating along, trying to do things the right way, trying to follow our brains and our hearts to lead us to success. But what is the ultimate goal really?

The sad thing as humans is that we don't really know what we're working towards. If I could have a picture of me 30 years from now, settled in life and content with how it turned out, that would be nice, that would give me purpose, make me feel like everything is gona be all right. But its not happening, because I literally don't know if I'm going to live to see the next 30 years.

I look back on my life even just a year ago and basically everything has changed. And I have no idea where it's going. I just keep going and hoping that I am doing the right things and that I am on the path to happiness. And that's all you can really do at the end of the day. And try to have some fun along the way.